To my future..

I may lack in so many things, in so many ways..
I hate crowded places but sometimes I will demand you to take me to a concert..
I could be extremely cheerful one day and feeling in blue in another day..
I could get really angry at you but showering you with so many love just several minutes later..
I may looked so tough outside but fragile inside.
But just believe me when I say I love you..

I’ll never show my true self to anyone but you..
Not even to my parents..
Nor family..
Nor friends..

I’m too complicated in so many ways..
But please bare with me..
I wish you could be the only one who understands..
That eventhough I look really mean or rude outside..
I never meant to be that way..

Someday you’ll find me crying with no reason.
It’s okay, just please be with me and hug me..
and I’ll laugh with you in a minute..

And I’ll make you happy for a return.
I’ll always be with you in your happiest and hardest time..
I’ll tell you a lot of jokes, whether it’s funny or not.
I’ll listen to your pain and sing for you..
I’ll write you a poem..
I’ll cook for you.. sometimes.. maybe 😝

By the time I write this, currently I’m locking myself in my room..
I feel so in blue, lonely and feel like no one can understand how I feel.
I wish you were here, but then again, we haven’t met yet..
I don’t even know who you are or where are you..

At the time like this, I wish I could talk to you..
This loneliness is killing me
I used to cope this loneliness really well..
But as the time goes by, I don’t think I could handle it any longer..

There was a man..
A long long time ago..
Who could bare with me..
Me and my complicated personality..
Who loved me dearly..
But then again, he left..
After so many years..

So my dear future...
Could we live a happily ever after?
I know there will be storms, tears and not always bright things
But I love rain anyways..
Just please.. stand by me..