a Happy Ending is not just for anyone

Have you ever been fall so deeply?
Getting drawn into someone, into something,
and finally realize there’s no way to turning back..

Have you ever been holding into something..
tightly..
too tight..
and finally realize that you have to let it go..

But I’ve been there..
for about more than 8 years, holding onto something that I called love, or friendship..

There were 2 most important people in my life..
That I never thought they are going to be someone who hurt me the most..
People who I rely on the most..
A lover and a bestfriend..

I used to think that I won’t need anyone else, but them.
Laughing on the phone.
Showing affection.
Getting angry at each other.
Teasing each other,
But most importantly, we valued each other in our life.

Well..
I thought it was like that..

Until I finally realize and being forced to understand that nothing last forever..
Until I came to the conclusion that I was alone..
After all this time..

There will never a time when we can sit together..
Maybe laugh until midnight..
Watching something together..

Maybe I’ll spend the rest of my life, wondering about,
How do my ex-lover looked like..
and how do my bestfriend looked like..

Because the things such a happy ending won’t come to just anyone, right?

When evertyhing I want is as simple as the three of us,
Being together..


Forever.